Priyamvda / प्रियंवदा

on Jan 11, 2022

Prakriti, Prem, Priyamvada and "Priyam", all seem to complement each other! Surely there are. It is clear from the index itself that the specialty of these poems adorned with modern prose is love.

The first volume of the book is devoted to pleasing love. Most of the solo dialogues of the heroine show depth. Sometimes the excitement of thinking increases in such a way that the answers to all the questions automatically spring.....मगर यही सोच/ मेरी उत्सुकता को/ मेरे भीतर ही थाम लेती हूं/ कि जो आनंद उत्सुक फुहार में है/ वो प्रश्नों के तीव्र बौछार में कहां?...

Where on the one hand there is the ruthlessness of waiting in love, on the other hand there is also the mind saving the pulsation of arrival. "Love" is one such expression. From the aasmani swayamvara, the heroine suddenly comes to the earth world and is in search of a gift for the lover, but the divine love of the mind wants to forget it as insignificant. Exaggeration has been used in expressions like garland of songs and becoming the lover of the ocean...."मैं बन लहर/आसमां पहन/समुद्र की मैं प्रेयसी/बादलों से उतर आयी हूं।"

The next section "tumhe prem krne ki meri chaah" is completely devoted to the patterns in which the heroine wants to reach her beloved by placing herself in it... Through letters, sometimes as a bird, sometimes as deep as a river Maybe by pouring a volcano of jealousy into it, sometimes through intense fantasies. The heart of a spider web heroine is also not untouched by it. The last two poems, in which the beloved's search and faith are described, add to the beauty of the section.

Under the next step "Alvida Prem", this truth has been engraved that it is difficult to write love poems when there is no love left in life. A depressed mind was sometimes compared to a train and sometimes to a married woman returning from Pihar after celebrating Sawan. The deep pain of departing love is reflected in these words..किसी भाषा में/ किसी बोली में/ किसी पुस्तकालय/ या शब्दकोश में/ नहीं मिल रहा/वह शब्द/ जो/ आशाओं के/ पुन: सृजन में/ असमर्थता से उत्पन्न पीड़ा को/व्यक्त कर सके"....

"Udas premikayen" is portrayed poignantly in the next part. The heroine knows very well that she may be Ahalya but Ram is not going to come. How difficult it is to adjust in the middle of someone's movement. It could have been easier to live. How to reduce suffering when "dukh hi ekmatra satya hai". Where do you find the "Prem dekhne ki abhyast meri aankhein", even if they dissolve in the memories.

The next part is dedicated to the "river and woman" sometimes dry, sometimes water.
Since time immemorial, a woman has been compared to a river. Somewhere the river has to merge into the ocean and become dead, then somewhere there is a possibility that life will take a dip in the dead sea. There is also a face dissolved in neglect, the struggle of "Luni" is the answer of this part....
"तब लौट अायी होगी/ खंडित हृदया चुपचाप/ मन में कुछ विचारते/ संजोते हुये प्रेम पर विश्वास"....

Comes to the end with "priy tum meri prateeksha krna" of this book. The author has exposed her pain for love, when custom, tradition, belief, pomp and limitations etc. Beyond whom the heroine wants to live love.